Diary of a Madwoman

The Elephant in the Room: Suicide (Part 8 of 8)

/ Rochelle N. (Callahan) Males / 2 Comments
September 9 through September 15, 2012
Suicide Prevention Awareness Week

Every year since 1974, the nation has come together in a week-long campaign to help promote Suicide Prevention Awareness.  All sorts of events are held all over our country, in the hopes that the information received there will help keep even just one person from committing suicide. The idea is to draw attention to suicide prevention, suicide warning signs, reduce stigma surrounding the topic of suicide (so that more prevention happens), encourage those who need it to seek mental health assistance, and to support those who have attempted suicide, as well as those who have lost someone to suicide.

Walks are organized, screenings are done, information is handed out, and memorials are held for those who have been lost. Fundraisers collect money for research for mental health issues, and for existing suicide prevention outlets.  All of this helps coincide with what is known as World Suicide Prevention Day, which is held annually on the 10th of September. As the name would imply, this is the day that suicide prevention is recognized all over the world. 
For my small part in helping promote and spread awareness, I am posting one blog post every day this week—Suicide Prevention Awareness Week—in the hope that even one person may be saved. I have experienced loss to suicide myself (some time ago now) and find this to be a therapeutic way for me to deal with that grief.
I intend to give you as much information as I can on suicide but I also strongly encourage you to take the time to read the personal stories attached within all the facts. These are real people, with real stories that I have collected, just for this occasion. They wanted to let anyone who reads their stories to know that they are not alone in whatever they are going through. There is hope and there is help.
Thank you for stopping by to check this out. Suicide is preventable. Sometimes all it takes is for someone to spread the word, so pass this along as you see fit to. Here’s to hoping we can help save some lives.

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This is going to be the last installment of my suicide awareness series. I hope that everyone has benefited from reading everything so far.

Today, I will share some resources for anyone who is thinking of attempting suicide and for anyone who has lost someone to suicide. This is by no means a complete comprehensive list, but I hope that it is at least a place to start.

In the next few weeks, I will be adding a more complete resources page to my blog. I want a place where the information below is readily available for anyone to find and utilize, so keep a lookout for it.

Remember, suicide is 100% preventable. Sometimes, all it takes is to talk to someone who will listen. You are NOT alone and you ARE loved. If anyone tells you differently, they are WRONG.

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If you are currently experiencing suicidal thoughts and/or behaviors, here are some resources for you to try:

Military OneSource
1-800-342-9647
    • Live Chat with Trained Individuals
  • Teen 2 Teen Hotline
    • 714-NEW-TEEN (639-8336)
    • Call between 5pm and 9pm
  •  Crisis Chat: Online Emotional Support
  • GLBT National Help Center
    • 1-888-THE-GLNH (843-4564)
    • 1-800-246-7743  (Youth Talkline)
      • Monday thru Friday from 1pm to 9pm, pacific time
        (Monday thru Friday from 4pm to midnight, eastern time)
      • Saturday from 9am to 2pm, pacific time
        (Saturday from noon to 5pm, eastern time)
  • State/Local Call Center numbers can be found here.
    • Tillamook County Crisis Number:
      • Tillamook Family Counseling Center: 503-842-8201
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If you have lost someone to suicide, or know someone who has, you can use any or all of the above hotlines and chat lines for immediate information, help, and support. There are trained individuals to help you understand and manage your grief on the other end of these support lines. Please, use them.

Here are some additional resources that you can use to help you deal with your loss:

 Simply click on one of the above mentioned organizations and you should be directed straight to each of the resource pages. Many of these resource pages have websites listed to visit, links to online support groups, information about suicide and grief, and even book listings to take a look at. Take a few minutes to look around each of these resources and find the best ones for your needs.

Always remember: If you are in immediate danger, or know someone who is, call 911 (or any other local emergency contact number) and/or the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline.

I hope this has helped in some way.
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A Year Ago…
 1/31/04
For: Hanse Joshua Peterson
3/27/87 to 2/4/03
Sick and twisted thoughts stir in my mind
Guilt of the tragedy is all that’s left behind
Memories of who he was are fading fast
How long is this pain inside going to last?
Four days from now it will have been a year
The loss of someone close is what I fear
What did he think when he breathed his last breath?
Was he scared when he knowingly embraced his own death?
Suicide Action Montreal
514-723-4000
24 hours; 7 days a week
A year ago we were all doing just fine
Then the world fell apart, including mine
I told myself that it couldn’t be true
So lost and confused, I didn’t know what to do
Wandering alone in the dark I couldn’t see
My pain was so great and I blamed me
A year ago not many people knew who he was
If he walked to school or rode the bus
Did he have many friends or was he a loner?
Was he a goody-goody or was he a stoner?
Did he laugh much or did he ever cry?
No one gave a damn until he died!
A year ago nobody cared to ask questions
To give him advice or make small suggestions
They laughed at him and they called him names
They all fucked him up with their mind games
Now some sit outside and enjoy the rain
Some hide away and swallow their pain
I live my life and hide my pain away
I lost a good friend a year ago today
Rochelle Callahan
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If you live in the Tillamook area, there is an Applied Suicide Intervention Skills Training (ASIST) workshop that you can attend. According to the information ad in our local newspaper:

“Asist is a comprehensive suicide intervention training. ASIST is the result of more than 20 years of research and development, and is the most widely used suicide intervention program in the world. ASIST is partially funded through a federal grant targeting suicide prevention alternative.
By the end of the workshop you will know:
  • The signs of suicidal thinking
  • How to intervene to prevent immediate risk of suicide
  • The resources available in your area”
 If you are interested in attending this workshop it will be held on September 20th and September 21st from 9 am until 5 pm at Tillamook Bay Community College (TBCC). Registration for attendance is required. The cost to attend is $30 per person and for Social Workers, Counselors, and First Responders there are Continuing Education Credits available for taking this workshop. If you would like to register, please take a moment to call (503) 842-8201 ext. 271.

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Acknowledgments/Thanks:


This has been a big personal project for me. While the initial idea for an informational post-a-day for suicide prevention awareness week was indeed mine, I do have to admit that the idea to incorporate personal stories into each post, was not mine alone. I have to give that credit to Lisa Richards.
In my initial research for current information on suicide facts and statistics, I came across her website and read her homepage, which explains what her book is about. Richards lost her eighteen year old daughter to suicide in 2011 and began collecting letters from all of Mallory’s family and friends. Each page in the book is filled with love and loss…laughter and heartbreak. I found this to be incredibly touching and couldn’t shake a serious case of the goosebumps.
Due to the intense reaction I felt to just reading the homepage of her website, the idea that incorporating personal stories into my posts was born. I hoped that someone reading my posts would be as deeply affected by the personal stories shared there as I was by this loving gesture.  So, a great big thank you to Lisa Richards. You are an inspiring and strong woman.
On that note, I wish to thank the wonderful guest bloggers that gave me the pleasure of showcasing their spectacular writing skills, as well as, their very real and personal experiences with suicide. I really feel honored to share their stories with all of you in the hopes that it will help spread awareness. They are wonderfully strong women who are, I believe at least, fabulous writers. If you haven’t already checked out their blogs, you should head on over and do so now! Just the Messenger. and Diary of a Madwoman, thank you again so very much!!
And last, but certainly not least, I want to thank all of my terrific family and friends who also helped me with this important project by sharing their own stories and experiences. I feel like a great weight of my posts couldn’t have been possible without your help and input. I can never thank you enough for allowing me this privilege.

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“Ok, so my story… not really sure what to include so I’ll do pretty much everything.
I have a family history of mental illness, my mom is majorly depressed, anxiety, PTSD, etc. My father is bipolar, psycho, rage. My father was an abusive asshole to my mom—actually I was a rape baby while she was on birth control. He threatened to kill her if she aborted me. So, after I was born she fled away from him with my aunt to Washington state. Somehow, he always kept finding her and beating the shit out of her. That is until my 5th birthday. She figured out that he was able to pay the post office $1 and if he knew the old address, [he could] get the new address. So, she fixed that and we finally got away from him. Unfortunately, for me, I was out of a physically abusive situation and into a mentally and emotionally abusive one.
I am bipolar, anxiety, mania, psychosis, schizoaffective… and a very high IQ. My mom didn’t know how to handle me, so we always fought. She didn’t mean to, but she always ended up trying to stifle me. She was a single parent working 2-3 jobs. As I got older, things only got worse. It turned physically abusive as well. I finally crossed the line in middle school, and I threatened the school cop, and was sent to Texas to live with my aunt, again.
This was quite possibly the worst experience of my life. They treated me like the redheaded stepchild. I was never included in anything. They treated me like a prisoner. Worse even. It was during this period that my depression worsened from [just] depression to suicidal ideations and self-mutilation. I had been slightly suicidal already since about 2nd grade. I used to hide in my closet with a butcher knife held to my heart just wishing for the courage to plunge it through my chest. In 3rd grade I was hospitalized after walking to school in the bike lane, since there were no sidewalks. They thought I was trying to kill myself. I wasn’t at the time, and it only taught me how to manipulate the system. It didn’t do anything to help me.
So in 7th grade when I went to Texas, I started cutting myself on a daily basis almost. I remember the first time I ever did it was on Thanksgiving in 1999. I had been there for about 6 months and I had found quickly that everything they had promised me was a lie. They claimed they treated me like their own child, but if I so much as blinked wrong I was in a living nightmare. Whereas their kids could disappear without any notice until 10ish at night and they [would] just blow it off. Then in 8th grade there was a choir concert and everyone was cheering for their friends. I had bad timing apparently and cheered for a split second after everyone had stopped. I stopped as soon as I realized this mind you, but they didn’t believe it. So what was my punishment for such a heinous crime? I got to stay up all night on school nights for some ‘quality time’ with my drill sergeant uncle. He put me through military boot camp PT all night, let me get 2 hours of sleep, made me go to school like that, and do it all over again. For weeks.
Needless to say, this did nothing for my mental state. They had also withheld my Christmas gifts from me, but had filmed the whole thing for family and my mother to see, so they made me pretend to open my things and be happy. I wasn’t. Then you take into account that I was molested by my older cousin a couple times. I had no desire to continue living. I got so deep into cutting myself that I made morbid little designs and decorations on my arms. I thought they were beautiful. I still do.
Cutting/self -mutilation is an addiction. I haven’t done it on a regular basis since I was 19, but I still have the urge to do it every year or two. In fact just writing this is making me itch for it. It’s such an amazing sense of relief from the stress and anxiety built up inside of you. It’s more powerful than any drug in the world. I should know, I’m no stranger to them.
In 11th grade I tried to kill myself by swallowing a bottle of sleeping pills and was hospitalized again. This time I was prepared but they still managed to catch me off guard. They drugged me before I went to see the shrink and was high out of my mind. The first morning I woke up, granted the only morning I was there, the girl in the room with me and her friend asked me if I wanted to burn myself with salt and ice. No, I can’t say that I do. There were about 3 people including myself who were there because they were genuinely depressed and suicidal. All the others, well, they were just behavior problems that their parents didn’t want to deal with. Take my roommate for example, she was around 9-10 and her grandmother was her guardian. She was supposed to show up that day to visit, but she didn’t. So the child started throwing a fit and trashing the place. Thankfully my mom was there to see it. I had told her the place was literally making me crazier but she didn’t believe me. For some reason she had stuck around longer than expected and when she saw that girl she immediately checked me out. It was an incredibly unhealthy place.
I had always hated being on medication. I had been on 19 different meds between 6 and 11 years old. So, I was on anti-psych medications until I was 19. At which point, I realized I really needed help and decided I wanted to get somewhere in life. I wanted to be a psychiatrist and help other people in my situation. Unfortunately that wouldn’t really happen. When I was 20, almost 21, I had surgery to remove my gallbladder and would discover that I’m terminally ill. I decided that I’d be a nurse then since it didn’t take as long as psychiatry. That didn’t work out either. The pain in my kidneys got to be too much for me to even go to school and lately to even function normally. Nursing was definitely out of the question.
It didn’t seem fair that all the time I spent wanting to die on account of my depression, I would overcome it mostly just to find out it wasn’t really any better. Nowadays, I’m still suicidal, but in a different way.
I’m terminally ill. I suffer on a daily basis in incredible pain and I’m on high enough doses of narcotics to kill a few people with one dose of my meds. Now I want to die to end my suffering. I believe in assisted suicide for the terminally ill. I feel we’re more humane to our animals than we are our sick and dying.
I’ve recently come up with an idea for a charity/foundation to help people who are suicidal get help. I’m also focusing very heavily on cutting and self-mutilation needing addiction help. I’ve been lucky enough to be able to collaborate on it with Bert McCracken of The Used, my absolute favorite band.
I don’t believe that my desire to die currently is wrong in any way. My pain will never end. Yours can. So please never give up and find help if you need it. It’s nothing to be ashamed of. I’m lucky enough to have a husband who takes care of me in light of all my problems. You’ll get through it. I promise. It may not be incredibly soon, mine took most of my life, but it will get better.”  ~~Stephani Trioli~~

Thank you so much Steph 🙂 I love you sweetheart, so much! I’m so excited for you for being able to collaborate with Bert for you project! And, I am proud of you for trying to help spread awareness as well. *Hugs and Kisses*
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If you need someone to talk to, please call the number above.
There is someone one the other end who WANTS to help you.
Suicide is NOT the answer.

The Elephant in the Room: Suicide (Part 6 of 8)

/ Rochelle N. (Callahan) Males
September 9 through September 15, 2012
Suicide Prevention Awareness Week

Every year since 1974, the nation has come together in a week-long campaign to help promote Suicide Prevention Awareness.  All sorts of events are held all over our country, in the hopes that the information received there will help keep even just one person from committing suicide. The idea is to draw attention to suicide prevention, suicide warning signs, reduce stigma surrounding the topic of suicide (so that more prevention happens), encourage those who need it to seek mental health assistance, and to support those who have attempted suicide, as well as those who have lost someone to suicide.

Walks are organized, screenings are done, information is handed out, and memorials are held for those who have been lost. Fundraisers collect money for research for mental health issues, and for existing suicide prevention outlets.  All of this helps coincide with what is known as World Suicide Prevention Day, which is held annually on the 10th of September. As the name would imply, this is the day that suicide prevention is recognized all over the world. 
For my small part in helping promote and spread awareness, I am posting one blog post every day this week—Suicide Prevention Awareness Week—in the hope that even one person may be saved. I have experienced loss to suicide myself (some time ago now) and find this to be a therapeutic way for me to deal with that grief.
I intend to give you as much information as I can on suicide but I also strongly encourage you to take the time to read the personal stories attached within all the facts. These are real people, with real stories that I have collected, just for this occasion. They wanted to let anyone who reads their stories to know that they are not alone in whatever they are going through. There is hope and there is help.
Thank you for stopping by to check this out. Suicide is preventable. Sometimes all it takes is for someone to spread the word, so pass this along as you see fit to. Here’s to hoping we can help save some lives.

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As I mentioned in yesterday’s awareness post, today we have a guest post from Diary of a Madwoman. She is a mother of three and a widow finding her way through the journey of grief after losing her husband to suicide over a year ago.

She chronicles her journey with surviving after her husband’s death and raising her children, who are still grieving and affected deeply by their loss. Her writing is rather inspirational and after you’re finished here, I suggest you take a trip on over to her page and read her story from the beginning. She is such a strong and compassionate woman and her story really is remarkable.
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S.U.I.C.I.D.E.
(Originally posted on:) Tuesday, October 25, 2011

“There…I said the word. And I so hate it. I’ve been thinking today about how many people just don’t get it. They think Dave is a coward, a quitter, a man who deserted his wife and 3 kids, babies so young they won’t even remember their daddy. I probably thought all that too, before my life was destroyed by it. I’ve even admitted that if this happened to someone else I knew, I would be saying “How did the wife not know? Why didn’t she help him? Why didn’t anybody DO anything?” It’s such a sneaky killer, really.  Those of us close to Dave in the last few weeks were the most shaken, obviously, but also the most stunned. Why didn’t he say anything??? Why did he suffer in silence? And for how long?

When this happens to you, you realize that no one in their right mind does this. Looking back, I believe Dave suffered from anxiety and depression since Katrina. But I don’t even think he KNEW what IT was. He never said “I’m depressed” or “I feel anxious”. It was his way of life obviously. To cope he snuck pills, hid it from everyone. But the wrong kind of pills of course. And when he finally sought medical attention, he was prescribed adderrall. The adderrall put his problems front and center. Made everyday bullshit seem INSURMOUNTABLE. I feel so badly for him. I’m so sad this was his life. His one attempt at help killed him because he didn’t understand the disease himself.

My sister in law is walking in the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention Fundraiser. The website is http://www.outofthedarkness.org. So appropriately named. I was saying this morning if you have cancer or diabetes or MS people do walks and raise money…but there is less understanding about mental illness. You can’t see it on an x-ray so it mustn’t be real. I wonder what would have happened if Dave would have seen a commerical or heard a radio spot or passed a billboard with a flashing suicide prevention number? Would he have called? Would he be here today?”

Posted by Diaryof a Mad Woman at 12:57 PM

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 Many people who commit suicide do so to end their own pain. Some even do it because they believe their loved ones will be better off without them. What many of those people don’t realize is that their decision to end their own life will affect so many people around them, and has profound effects on the way their loved ones will live the rest of their lives. Those left to grieve the victim are called suicide survivors. According to the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention (AFSP), this term implies that the grief felt from a suicide is more severe than or otherwise distinct from “normal” mourning. For every victim there are at the very least, six survivors.

Those who lose someone to suicide usually feel many conflicting emotions for the deceased individual. Intense feelings of shock, anger, hate, guilt, remorse, relief, sadness, and even peace may be some of the emotions felt by a survivor. Someone who has lost a loved one to suicide may experience new or worsened sleeping habits, feelings of isolation and emptiness, sudden change in appetite and other behaviors of depression. Sometimes, the suicide of a loved one can lead to dysfunction within the family (including divorce), loss of income and physical properties, or even more suicides.

When a person commits suicide they don’t realize that the pain they are trying to end is the same (or very similar) pain that will be felt by their family and friends. The people they love the most are the ones who will feel the loss the worst. Mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters, aunts, uncles, cousins, spouses, children, grandchildren, old friends, and new friends are all going to feel the pain of the loss of a suicide victim.

However, not everyone who suffers from the loss is close friends and family. The loss is usually felt throughout the community and many times, this is used as a time to promote awareness and learning, as well as, grief counseling. Fellow soldiers, teachers, principals, classmates, co-workers, doctors, police officers, paramedics, and even neighbors are all affected by a suicide.
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 I’ll Never Forget His Face
“The night before I had a very uneasy feeling, so I had issues sleeping that night. I got up early the nest morning with my infant son. I started to hear people talking outside so I went out to see what had happened. Then I was told, “She won’t come out of the apartment”; without asking why or caring why I ran in and found her standing in her kitchen. I put my arm around her to start to guide her outside. As we spun around, I discovered why no one else would go in to get her. Her husband was in the doorway to the staircase. He was pale. His eyes were so empty; staring straight through your soul. He was motionless. His lips were blue. All I could do was stare as I noticed he was hanging by his neck with a pair of stretch pants. He had sent his daughter to school and then taken his own life while his wife slept in the next room. All I know, is that I still see his face sometimes.”  ~~Patricia~~
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I’d like to thank the wonderful Diary of a Madwoman for letting me use her personal experience with suicide for this series. It really means a lot to me and if you haven’t already read the rest of her talented and inspiring writing then I suggest you go do so now 🙂

I’d also like to thank Patricia for sharing her story with us as well. You are a terrific friend and a strong woman. I love you, my friend.

I know I have mentioned it in almost all of the previous posts, but I am going to mention it again.
If you live in the Tillamook area, there is an Applied Suicide Intervention Skills Training (ASIST) workshop that you can attend. According to the information ad in our local newspaper:

“ASIST is a comprehensive suicide intervention training. ASIST is the result of more than 20 years of research and development, and is the most widely used suicide intervention program in the world. ASIST is partially funded through a federal grant targeting suicide prevention alternative.

By the end of the workshop you will know:

  • The signs of suicidal thinking
  • How to intervene to prevent immediate risk of suicide
  • The resources available in your area”

If you are interested in attending this workshop it will be held on September 20th and September 21st from 9 am until 5 pm at Tillamook Bay Community College (TBCC). Registration for attendance is required. The cost to attend is $30 per person and for Social Workers, Counselors, and First Responders there are Continuing Education Credits available for taking this workshop. If you would like to register, please take a moment to call (503) 842-8201 ext. 271.

In tomorrow’s post I hope to be able to give some helpful/useful tips and advice to those who are considering suicide and those who have lost someone to suicide, on what they can do to either get help for themselves or someone else. I hope that you will come back then and see what I have to offer. I hope it can make a difference to someone.

If you need someone to talk to, please call the number above.
There is someone one the other end who WANTS to help you.
Suicide is NOT the answer.

The Elephant in the Room: Suicide (Part 5 of 8)

/ Rochelle N. (Callahan) Males / 2 Comments
September 9 through September 15, 2012
Suicide Prevention Awareness Week

Every year since 1974, the nation has come together in a week-long campaign to help promote Suicide Prevention Awareness.  All sorts of events are held all over our country, in the hopes that the information received there will help keep even just one person from committing suicide. The idea is to draw attention to suicide prevention, suicide warning signs, reduce stigma surrounding the topic of suicide (so that more prevention happens), encourage those who need it to seek mental health assistance, and to support those who have attempted suicide, as well as those who have lost someone to suicide.

Walks are organized, screenings are done, information is handed out, and memorials are held for those who have been lost. Fundraisers collect money for research for mental health issues, and for existing suicide prevention outlets.  All of this helps coincide with what is known as World Suicide Prevention Day, which is held annually on the 10th of September. As the name would imply, this is the day that suicide prevention is recognized all over the world. 
For my small part in helping promote and spread awareness, I am posting one blog post every day this week—Suicide Prevention Awareness Week—in the hope that even one person may be saved. I have experienced loss to suicide myself (some time ago now) and find this to be a therapeutic way for me to deal with that grief.
I intend to give you as much information as I can on suicide but I also strongly encourage you to take the time to read the personal stories attached within all the facts. These are real people, with real stories that I have collected, just for this occasion. They wanted to let anyone who reads their stories to know that they are not alone in whatever they are going through. There is hope and there is help.
Thank you for stopping by to check this out. Suicide is preventable. Sometimes all it takes is for someone to spread the word, so pass this along as you see fit to. Here’s to hoping we can help save some lives.

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Bullycide is a relatively “new” term for a lot of people. It simply refers to suicide as a direct result of being bullied. There have been NUMEROUS suicides in which bullying was the major player in why the victim chose to end their life. A study done by the Center for Disease Control (CDC) shows a significant link between peer violence/bullying and suicidal behaviors in children and young adults. In this study, students who had been threatened or physically harmed by another student were almost two and half times more likely to have thoughts of suicide, and they were a little more than three times as likely to report having suicidal behaviors than students who were not bullied in some way.

In a previous post, I mentioned 13 year old Rachel Ehmke who took her own life after extensive bullying. When I dug a little deeper I also found stories about 12 year old Joel Morales, 15 year old Lennon Baldwin, 14 year old Eden Wormer, 15 year old Amanda Cummings, and 14 year old Phillip Parker, all of whom committed suicide as a result of bullying.

I even found this very recent article about Charlotte Dawson, one of the judges from Australia’s Next Top Model, and her suicide attempt after being bullied online. No one is immune from the effects of bullying and depression. No one. Though, in my research, this appears to be a phenomenon almost exclusive to children and young adults.

As with all my pictures, I found this on Yahoo. I did not make this and have no rights to it!! Thought you should know 🙂

Also, in my research, I noticed that bully related suicides seem to be “on the rise” with victims being younger and younger all the time. I believe this is probably due to the incessant advances in technology and how it defines our lives. The accessibility and availability of the online world is abundant today. More so, than when I was 10 or 11 years old.

I think that because these younger (7 to 13 or 14 years old) kids have things like iPads, iPhones, iPods, laptops, and game systems, to name a few, with web access as well as varying, multiple responsibilities that parent have, it is harder–mind you, I said harder NOT impossible–to monitor their activity on the web and keep children from online bullying.

There are safeguards on computers, phones, televisions, game systems, and almost any other electronic device these days that parents can utilize to help keep their children safe online. I just did a search on Yahoo! and instantly came up with these results. You can find parental control software and “How-to” manuals on using what you already have on your devices. That link I gave to the list is just a start. Do your own search, specified to your devices. It could help end bullying and possibly save a life.

In a few earlier posts in this series (Part 2 and Part 4) I gave a general list of suicide facts, definitions, and warning signs. This is all good information to have, however, knowing what may predispose someone for suicidal behavior may help you determine if someone you know IS thinking of committing suicide, or simply having a rough time. Remember, if you aren’t sure, DON’T be afraid to ask the person if they are okay.

There are many things that can factor into a person being more or less likely to attempt/commit suicide. Here I have compiled a short list of these factors to share with you:

    • Family history of suicide
    • Family history of mental disorders and/or substance abuse
    • Violence/Abuse within the family (physical and/or sexual
    • History of depression or other mental illness
    • History of self-harm and previous suicide attempts
    • A romantic break up
    • The death of a loved one
    • Living in a place that has had a recent outbreak in youth suicides
    • Legal and/or financial problems
    • Feelings of being abandoned and/or rejected
    • The recent diagnosis of a terminal condition
    • Current self-harm behaviors
    • Traumatic brain injury
    • Lack of Familial Acceptance of Sexual Orientation
    • Cultural and/or Religious beiefs
      • For example, some cultures believe suicide to be a noble solution to a personal dilemma
    • Barriers to mental health treatments
    • Isolation or feeling cut-off from people
    • Due to the stigma attached to mental health, suicidal thoughts
      and substance abuse disorders, many people are unwilling to seek health
    • Easy access to lethal means
    • History of being bullied by peers
Learn how to use parental controls to keep
your kids safe from online bullying
    • This can happen online and/or in-person
    • This can be mental and/or physical
    • This can happen to children, young adults, and older adults
  • As I mentioned in Part 2 of this series, getting older also is a risk factor for suicide
    • Most significantly in men aged 65 and over.
    • The risk of suicide for women peaks between 45 and 54 years old and then again after the age of 75.
    • Men aged 65 and over are seven times more likely to commit suicide than women who are aged 65 and over.

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“I [have] tried to kill myself two times. The first time was because I had people telling me what to do, who I could and couldn’t be with, and a family member told me they were going to take my kids away from me and I didn’t what to live without my kids.
I tried to take an overdose of the depression meds I was on at the time. My husband found me and got me to come to and no one knows about this. The second time, my heart was breaking because my husband and I [were] apart and a lot of things were going on at the time. I took four ibuprofen, [then] I got scared and called 911 and was taken to the hospital. After that, a cop took me home and I have not tried it again.
There are times I [still] feel like everyone would be better off without me, but I will not try anything again.”   ~~Anonymous~~

***I want to say thank you, so very much, for letting me share your story. I want to let you know that I did make minor spelling, punctuation and grammar corrections (that is what some of the bracketed stuff is!).  I hope that your story will help someone else to seek help.***

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I’ll once again give you the information of the ASIST workshop being hosted by our local community college for anyone who is in the area and is interested in attending!!

So, if you live in the Tillamook area:

“Asist is a comprehensive suicide intervention training. ASIST is the result of more than 20 years of research and development, and is the most widely used suicide intervention program in the world. ASIST is partially funded through a federal grant targeting suicide prevention alternative.

By the end of the workshop you will know:
  • The signs of suicidal thinking
  • How to intervene to prevent immediate risk of suicide
  • The resources available in your area”
 If you are interested in attending this workshop it will be held on September 20th and September 21st from 9 am until 5 pm at Tillamook Bay Community College (TBCC). Registration for attendance is required. The cost to attend is $30 per person and for Social Workers, Counselors, and First Responders there are Continuing Education Credits available for taking this workshop. If you would like to register, please take a moment to call (503) 842-8201 ext. 271.

Tomorrow I have another wonderfully talented guest blogger, Diary of a Madwoman (who lost her husband to suicide over a year ago), who is going to let me showcase some of her previous work in this series. I’ll also be hitting on information about who is affected by a suicide attempt/loss. I hope you will check back to read what she has to say, and then I hope you head on over to her page and read the rest of her awesomely written posts (if you haven’t done so already that is).

If you need someone to talk to, please call the number above.
There is someone one the other end who WANTS to help you.
Suicide is NOT the answer.